The members of herpesviridae-- creeping into me..killing me silently..

By the way,in Greek, Herpein means 'to creep'.. >.< This reflects the creeping or spreading nature of the skin lesions caused by many herpes virus types..^^

As an immunocompetent person,
Who have been infected by some of the viruses belonging to this FAMILY..
Those feelings,
kept deep inside me..
are comparable to a latent infection..
Ahh yes..
i am appearing to be asymptomatic..
and those viruses came out of nowhere... :-(

Maybe i should blame myself for not taking the possible precautions to prevent these infections..
but
sometimes,
things do not always go the way you wished it would be..
No one would want to be virally infected..
and
worse still if it is of unknown even when infected..
i am not sure about what is the true definition of backstabbers..
but i hope what i feel and see,
are not reality at all..

and yes...i do admit that things you hear/see/etc even with your very own 5senses
may not ALWAYS be true..
Time and patience perhaps, will be my best evidences..

i don't know what is so bad about me... :-((((
am i that horrible...? :-((((
Can someone please answer me....?please..? :-(

i wish i will remain immunocompetent always..
i do not want any serious complications to erupt..
No..i am not sure whether i will be strong enough to curb those recurrence.. :-(
Worse still if there're no antivirals available..

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Honestly,
All my life..
i feel like an irritant..
unwanted, rejected, unaccepted; if not forcefully accepted..
if it's not because of my mum,
i might not be here in this world already..
perhaps it is true that i have to live for myself, not for others..
but for now, i have no other very good reasons to live other than for my mum..
my ambition..? ah..yes..luckily i remind myself..
but the priority is still for the person i will NEVER be able to repay no matter WHAT: my mum..
She's sacrisfied toooooo much for me.. :'(
i wish to sequester myself in my very own world..but at the same time, feel heavy-hearted to lose my way on my journey to seek for true friends..
You can think that i am mad, i am a fool..but it doesn't matter to me..
i will follow my heart..and i will not care how the world will look at me anymore..
i trust myself..

For now..
i am tired...
i am seriously very very tired... sobs..
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Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is mystery and Today..is the present..which is also a present.. =)

The natural inhabitants of the human body..

FRIENDS are like normal flora..

Some
harm you when you are immunocompromised..

Some
have no benificial or harmful effect on your life..
They are called the commensals..

Some
are transient in nature; just passing by..

Some
exhibits mutualism..
You need each other and..
They may even participate in maintaining your good health..
Perhaps forever.. =)

But some..
you will only realize how important they are..
After they are killed by the administration of antibiotics..

Some words are just like antibiotics..
All you wish was just to kill the pathogens that have made you feel not well..
and win back your good health..
but
things don't always appear like how you wished it would be..

So..
Please don't simply administer antibiotics..
Not only the pathogens develop resistance..
Even the good normal flora cannot be with you anymore, during those hard times..

Perhaps..
Silence is golden..

but if i've ever made you feel unhappy, please don't keep it to yourself..
Please do tell me..
i am not smart..i can't read people's mind.. =(((

p/s: Dear Normal flora, i didn't mean to kill you.....but you never seem to understand..

Anyway..
Sighhhh........
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Scared.. :(

Seriously need to do well..
Must put my best foot forward..

LIM SIN SIUEW.
CALM DOWN AND YOU CAN DO IT! :-l

To all friends,
JIAYOU!
WE CAN DO IT! :-l (^_^)y

"a removed L from Lover, n its all OVER.." (quoted from a friend's fb post) =)

it's true that,

if you remove L,it'll be Over..
But
true love will never be Over..When a lover is Over with you,
Remove O..
because..
FOR a true love, it will be FORever..

Don't be left as a LEFTover..
Stand up and be yourself RIGHTover again.. =)

p/s: haven't started anything on MSP.. :p

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Numb: emotionless+emotions= neutralisation

Can't express
my frustration..
my exhaustion...

i am tired..extremely tired..

i need another weekend... :-(

Ahh.. i don't want to torture myself anymore..

Life is mine..
Life may not be long but at the same time,
may not be short..

2choices:-
to end my day happy/sad..

i'd rather be happy,of course..

May happiness come after i am done with MSP..
i really need to concentrate.. :-( sobs..

i am feeling so drained off...it's as if the person in me is not at all me...

i am tired..i am very very tired...and at the same time, very very very upset with myself.. =(

But for my loved ones, for my furture and for my country,
i will hang on..
ah yes..i will hang on..and try my best to climb UP instead of merely hanging on..
AND
that is definite.
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Love this song.. :)